Welcome to the Other Side of the Hill.
Today is my birthday. I am 51 years old, officially over the hill as they say. Why have I waited so long to do this?
It has taken me well over a year to publish my first blog post.
Why? Procrastination? Fear? Doubt? Yes, absolutely.
I decided today that I wasn’t going to put it off one more day. It was somewhere around 48 or 49 years old, that I decided I would take several years of journal entries - thoughts, concepts, inspiration - and I would write a book and be done by the time I was 50. Well, 50 came and went. I continued to journal and meditate daily, but slowly, the book evolved into the Full Heart Quiet Mind website and blog. But, alas, still no published blog posts. I continue to write in my journal on a regular basis, but still felt apprehensive about publishing or putting any content out there for the whole wide world to see.
Then, I read something from author Mark Manson: “Learning more” is the most seductive form of procrastination. “Planning more” is the second most. I continued to read. “What have you been avoiding through over-planning or telling yourself that you’re not ready yet? What would you lose by simply starting anyway? If the answer is “not much,” then guess what? Start anyway.” Oh, how this struck me. What am I waiting for? Unfortunately, I still didn’t publish anything. Another week or two went by and I was listening to Eckhart Tolle. To paraphrase what he said, the best way to become a teacher of presence or to help others along their spiritual path is to just be the light – find a way to create space and listen but also find a way to share your light with others. Write something small, make a blog, make a video, share something positive – put it out there for others to hear, read or see. This was it. It was like he was talking directly to me.
People who know me well, know I am a long-time meditator, yoga enthusiast and that I am continually working on my spiritual growth, and evolution. The desire to share and inspire others has grown stronger over the last several months. What was once a whisper has become a very loud undeniable voice. Conversations with friends have become more fulfilling and the more I hold space for people and listen to where they are at in their journey, the more I want to continue conversations to inspire their growth too.
So, no more fear, no more doubt no more planning or procrastination. Today is the day that I start that path down the other side of that beautiful hill. The path leads to growth, healing and helping others along their path.
Happy Birthday to me as I FINALLY click “publish” ~ and away we go.
Cheers,
Meg
